Posted by: thisinfertilelife | February 24, 2010

Why

Fuck.  Why did I ever think this could possibly be so easy?  Why did I start thinking about fitting three car seats in one car, worrying about finances with three kids in daycare, getting my maternity clothes out, planning a nursery in my head and a million other things.  In my mind, we were already a family of 5.

The ultrasound this morning showed no heartbeat and a gestational sac/fetal pole measuring only 5w4d.  I’m currently 6w4d based on the date of my last period.  There is a chance I ovulated late and this could still work out.  However, I just don’t think I would have had a positive pee stick on cd 30 if I did ovulate late (especially a week late).  I’m crushed.

They took blood today and will call tomorrow with HCG and progesterone levels.  If the bloodwork gives us any hope, they’ll have me come in for another ultrasound next week.  If the bloodwork shows the pregnancy is “not progressing,” I have three options (1) wait a week to see if my body will miscarry on its own, (2) take medicine to force miscarriage, or (3) schedule a D&C.

This just couldn’t be easy, could it?  I really don’t want to add pregnancy loss to my infertility resume.

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Responses

  1. Oh my God…no. I can only send you good thoughts. Hang in there…

  2. I am covered in goodbumps. I am so so sorry. If you need ANY help at all deciding on your options, caring for the twins, just an ear to yell at, whatever…I am totally here. I am going to hold onto hope for tomorrow but really, I am just so sorry. I do not wish this path on anyone. Take care of yourself. Sleep tonight and you will know more tomorrow….

  3. I’m so sorry. I’m still holding onto the hope that things will work out…but if you need anything, please let me know.

  4. This sucks. I am so so hoping that it just turns out that the timing is off. hugs.

  5. At some point in our lives, we’ll have no need to offer so many sorries. Until then, I’m holding out hope for this little sac and holding off on sorries. I’m thinking of you Denise.

  6. Terrible news, know that I’m rooting for you.

  7. I am so sorry:( I will be thinking the best for you and DH.

  8. Oh Denise! I am holding out hope for tomorrow but am so so very sorry you are facing this. My heart just hurts right now for you. Hoping and praying for the best. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

  9. I wish there were words I could say to make you feel better. But I know there isn’t anything to take the hurt and the ache away.
    If you need anything, let me know. I’ve been there and it sucks. But know you aren’t alone. Many hugs to you.

  10. We’ve still just got to hold out hope that everything is okay. I’m so sorry for this. I know you’re hurting. You’re in my thoughts.


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